I don't exist

May 6, 2010 - 02:07 | 6 replies

I don't know at which point this happened. A couple of years ago, if you made a search with my name, Mervi Eskelinen, it would have returned my site (the one that was here before) as the first hit. A couple of weeks ago I noticed my site was fourth or fifth on the list. So I decided now it's the time to stop stalling and launch the new blog. So I did. Nothing happened. I was still fourth or fifth. And the address was something like helmikuu.net/mervi/blog, which wasn't there anymore.

After some days I created a URL redirect from the non-existing blog-folder to the real front page. It seemed to be a mistake. The site vanished completely from the search. If you make a search with my name you will find some other people. Some, who most likely didn't even care about web back at 1998. Or didn't even know what it was.

A couple of hours ago my post How hard can it be was attacked by a flood of spam. Something about Canadian drugs. Besides the nice comments by a friend, Atso, spam has been most this blog has received during this short time.

For someone who has spent half of the time of their adult life online this all creates a bit of a crisis. Feels like I don't even exist anymore. I'm not there. In the eyes of most people roaming over web I don't exist.

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tero on May 6, 2010 - 09:38 said:

Ungooglability might be a blessing, you know.

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Mervi on May 7, 2010 - 17:27 said:

I've been googlable for the past 10 years or so. Used to be the one and only Mervi Eskelinen online. It's pretty bad for my career plans too. So, no. Not a blessing.

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Sorry about that. I added your page to my links, I don't know if it helps with Google results, but one can try...

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Mervi on May 11, 2010 - 23:09 said:

Awww thank you so much! You didn't have to. I'm actually back in the search, but still oddly low. I think it's got something to do with the fact that Google has went a bit wonky...

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Yeah, I noticed, we have to get you higher. Maybe the other Mervis could be bribed into changing their names. :)

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Mervi on May 12, 2010 - 13:58 said:

Maybe I should blame my family of giving me such a common name.


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