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I don't exist

06.05.2010 - 02:07

I don't know at which point this happened. A couple of years ago, if you made a search with my name, Mervi Eskelinen, it would have returned my site (the one that was here before) as the first hit. A couple of weeks ago I noticed my site was fourth or fifth on the list. So I decided now it's the time to stop stalling and launch the new blog. So I did. Nothing happened. I was still fourth or fifth. And the address was something like, which wasn't there anymore.

After some days I created a URL redirect from the non-existing blog-folder to the real front page. It seemed to be a mistake. The site vanished completely from the search. If you make a search with my name you will find some other people. Some, who most likely didn't even care about web back at 1998. Or didn't even know what it was.

A couple of hours ago my post How hard can it be was attacked by a flood of spam. Something about Canadian drugs. Besides the nice comments by a friend, Atso, spam has been most this blog has received during this short time.

For someone who has spent half of the time of their adult life online this all creates a bit of a crisis. Feels like I don't even exist anymore. I'm not there. In the eyes of most people roaming over web I don't exist.


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6 replies for "I don't exist

tero's picture
tero on said

Ungooglability might be a blessing, you know.

Mervi's picture
Mervi on said

I've been googlable for the past 10 years or so. Used to be the one and only Mervi Eskelinen online. It's pretty bad for my career plans too. So, no. Not a blessing.

Atso's picture

Sorry about that. I added your page to my links, I don't know if it helps with Google results, but one can try...

Mervi's picture
Mervi on said

Awww thank you so much! You didn't have to. I'm actually back in the search, but still oddly low. I think it's got something to do with the fact that Google has went a bit wonky...

Atso's picture

Yeah, I noticed, we have to get you higher. Maybe the other Mervis could be bribed into changing their names. :)

Mervi's picture
Mervi on said

Maybe I should blame my family of giving me such a common name.